Thank you..........

This week seems to never end...I'm sooo excited for the 4 day weekend. I'm not doing anything exciting but just the fact that I have a break for awhile. It will be fun no matter what I do. I've been trying to get my best friend to take a crazzy adverature but he is just not down with it...o well. I will stay in rexburg and make it fun, but next break I get I am taking a TRIP. I might take the trip alone and go do something really crazzy. I'm just feeling in the mood to do something out of the "norm" for myself. This week has been such a long week. I feel like I have so much to do and not enough time to do everything. I feel like I have a ton of different things to fix in my life but just can't seem to figure out how to fix it. Not like even to do with me but to do with others around me. But it's really funny, I was thinking about High School the other day. I use to think High School was so hard, if I can just turn 21 and serve a mission my life will be grand. But I laugh now because thats not the case at all...I am now 21 and I thought for sure I would have my papers filled out and waiting for my mission call but not even close to that. I don't feel like a mission is what I'm suppose to do with my life right now, the hardest thing is I know what I'm suppose to do but doing what he wants me to do is facing my fears and not running away from them...a friend said last night " running away from your fears will only mask them for awhile..." that is true. I prepare everyday as if it's the last day on earth...I'm always waiting for a bomb shell....it's kinda sad. But what I woke up to realize is that yes...I look back now and High School is way easier but I have been prepared to face life trials that come this way. I am so happy that I am at BYU-I, I am so happy to be at college. I am so happy for how my life has turned out so far, even though it's hard, I wouldn't want to be anywhere else or not have anyone in my life that is here now. I am grateful to each and everyone of them.

ps....I don't have time to go back and read through them soooo this coould be one be long ramble and not make since!!!!